Gifts

looking back this year, god has indeed left his fingerprints all over the place
i could see jesus magnified in many areas in my life
im really grateful to my caregroup and especially my caregroup leader who words are all so encouraging to me and always so timely.
i never should have doubted when joey said " just approach xiaohui when u are in need of advice, thats what CGL's (caregroup leaders) are for" haha
well, thanks joey! my brother. without you, i wouldnt have known this caregroup either.

now looking ahead to 2009. somehow it looks promising to me =)
my desire to perform beatbox to the church and to teach beatbox are coming true!
and i know jesus will be with me in this walk call life =)

oh yea! this christmas i had the most interesting presents!
a GNC basic Antioxidant dietary supplement!!
thank you Xin Er!!! this is indeed very thoughtful of you =D



and i have a new FAVOURITE TOY!! given by jeremy, my best bud!


DOMOKUN!!!




cheers 2008! it has been awesome!
and 2009, here i come!!

SHIT

SHUCKS!! I by accident deleted nearly 50GB of songs and movies


all gone... in just a click..... shit!!!

of all times.....

Merry christmas

the thing i totally dislike about christmas or new year is that the phone lines and internet connection will have this massive lag!

really pisses me off. and there's nothing interesting on tv when the clock strikes 12.

but at least i got to spend my christmas eve and christmas with my family members who were all present at home and we had a sumptuous steamboat dinner =D



i hereby wanna wish a blessed christmas to everyone whom i couldnt sent out my text to due to the lag and hope you guys have a wonderful christmas!

christmas

so christmas is around the corner
parties are held all over the world
but, i'll be spending my christmas eve at.. home this year =)
gonna spend time with my beloved mother because my dad's working

my dad, his a great guy. works really hard for the family so that we could always have food on the table. i could understand why sometimes he gets moody when he gets back. and i think the best way to appreciate all the hard work his going through, is to take care of my mother at home.

recently, my mother's been having a great deal of pain in her intestines. and it is causing pain in her spin too. this, is not just affecting my mother, but my dad too. so its best i'd stay home this christmas.

thank god i need not go malaysia with my groupmates anymore. though i really feel bad abandoning them at the very last minute. but i really hope they enjoy themselves while they are there.

as for now.. i myself am still down with flu. hope i could recover soon and really enjoy christmas with my mother. =)



Jesus. thanks for blessing my family again and again. i know you will not stop blessing us with better health, wealth and favour from you. Amen =)

christmas bash

Aarow held a Christmas bash on the 20th dec 2008 and it was indeed a bash!
it was like a rock concert! the presence was soo great that
all of us just wanna keep singing and singing till the break of dawn hahaha
but we had to leave eventually..

BUT the very next day was the main church Christmas event!
it was yet another time well spend in church =D

2009 will be full of abundance because Jesus is walking with me!

and i actually got presents from my caregroup members.. -touched-
which reminds me, i need to get it for them tooo. hahaha (oops heh)

overall, i had alot of fun with them =D
thanks TP(B)!
and thank you xiaohui! our beloved caregroupleader!
life has been a lot different with you guys =) (in a good way of cause)
to walk right and live right with god in my life is simply, awesome =)

heh oh.. did i mention that i've got bangs now? hahahahahhaha

event

Attended my church's Men's and Women's meeting.
was very helpful and meaningful at the same time, fun
even though i was down with a throat and ear infection.
really hope i recover soon as i may need to assist MC-ing for the next church event which is 2 days from now =D
really need my voice back.

oh, and got myself a cheap fisheye lens for the fun of it =)

pictures comes later. need my rest.

Holidays

yes! exams are finally over
but I've screwed up my last paper, I'm such a goner

felt really depressed about it but after a good sleep,
I'm, just a lil better.

This Hols will not be any different from the past 2 Hols i had.
got called back by my project Supervisor yet AGAIN to finish our robot.
that's the bitter part, the sweet part is that my robot got a commendation award which means we should be able to get a good grade for our never ending Major Project.

anyways, went for a shoot yesterday with a good friend, MingLong, and he taught me many new things about photography.
we did not get to have any night shots and its really sad..
well, just hope i will have more chances to hang out w him and learn more from him haha.



photos are here if you wanna check them out.
(yes I'm lazy to upload it twice.)

Exams

it only brings one thing,
stress

man, cant wait to get over it.

A good end to our Major Project

After a long 8 months of our Major Project,
we ended it with a BBQ
my team organized it and boy, it was a bash!
we had so much fun and to think that we only planned it in less than a week!
It was an unforgettable night and it was great knowing you all =)



I hereby wanna thank Naz who brought the marinated chickens
(and i apologize too for always giving you wrong directions),
Hanyang who brought the Booze,
everyone who turned up of course, =)
and my team, J3 productions, who planned this all out at the 11th hour =D cheers

(more BBQ photos here)

an empty soul

so my final year project is finally over.
judging was a disaster.
did not sleep the night before just to get the codes done
and the freaking battery died when the judges asked for a demonstration.
I'm filled with disappointment and at the same time,
I feel empty.

almost 8months wasted on this project
somehow, it became part of me

or maybe, I just need my rest
till this disappointment fades away

but then again, its just a time to catch my breath
for the next 2 weeks bring my lab tests, report submission and my term tests

(God, there's nothing i can do now but to leave my grades to you.)

3 monkeys

i had fun with you guys =)

but bias la! all thanks to stephanie =D


JEM.


JOEL.


STEPHANIE.

endure

down with flu and cough
reports to write
testings to do
project to complete
lack of sleep
so many things to do with so little time

I'm dead beat
but I have to pull this through

just 1 more week till the tensions all over
though it doesn't stop there
but at least there's space to breathe



I so need you God
I'm already, using every last bit of strength to pull this through

free hugs?

how i wish i could have one right now..

bittersweet memory

seeing you today was no surprise
you, still as beautiful as ever.
your sweet smile just melts me ever so quickly.
how i wish i could hug you freely

but, indeed. the silence killed us both
things are just so different right now
we are no doubt, worlds apart

even if we start over, we know we will end up here
so i guess, its best for us to stay like this
to keep you as my bittersweet memory

its here =DD

canon EOS 450D

i finally got you =D

more pictures to come from me from now on =P

RRRAAAWWWRRR!!!

lost in love

never know losing it would be such a pain
to hold on to you, is it all in vain?
letting go doesn't seem to change a thing
"Only time will tell" the people around say

time past, im still the same
but you, you're wearing his ring

its time to move on
there's nothing more to say
but im lost in love, all over again

my Saviour

he could move the mountains
he rose and conquered the grave
he does wonders
so much so, sometimes
i feel my things are too little for him
but i continued to seek him first.

God answers prayers
Believe it
he answered mine

been seeking for a chance to perform in church
and He placed me at the right place at the right time
and now, i've finally got the chance to do so
maybe he knew i wasn't prepared then

now. im sure =)

i can do all things through him who strengthens me

Stage Fright

am I ready?
to face that crowd,
with those eyes that glares into your soul
as though they are draining your life away
expecting nothing but the best



honeslty, the thoughts of it makes me shiver
But im sure, I can pull this through

Awkward

To dream of you,
a sweet dream i don't wanna up from,
to not speak of you
for such a long time
But
there you are
in my dreams

all so sweet. but awkward.

(you may be in my dreams, but not in my heart.)

Missing you

Title of the post says it all.

today

starts with a bad alarm that goes on and on till your up
checking the time, u whispered to yourself "dang! its morning, already?!"
dragging yourself to the bathroom, taking that bath that didnt wake you up at all!
"it was a real bad sleep after all" u though to yourself once more.

staring into the cupboard thinking of what to wear, you thought again "why should i really care?"
grabbing those berms you always wear and a top you got yourself dressed.

getting back to the study room you checked the time, "still early, probably should get myself filled"
detouring to the kitchen, you found nothing to nimble, your walked back to your studying room grumbling a little.

packing your bag, thinking what's needed to bring "HOLY! its thursday! -sigh-" the day of the week you most dread. packing all the books you have this sem, into that bag, wait, what's that smell? urgh! a stench came from the bag. "damn! whats wrong with my day today?" killing the stench with your trusty deodrant (adidas game spirit haha), you carried your heavy bag and set off for school.

wait and wait. the bus is yet to be seen. "did i miss the bus?" but just as you thought of that, the bus arrived. "wow! its not crowded at all!" quickly, you went to the upper deck of the bus and "dang! said it too early" crowded it was as expected. but you found a seat, next to this physically challenged guy. trying to sit as comfortably as possible so you do not stick out like a sore thumb in the aisle wasnt quite successful as you aint any smaller dude. and still sticking out like a sore thumb, that was your journey to school.

school! finally you're here! as you struggled your way out of the crow, you saw someone familiar. "should I?.... NAH" and off you go anti-social boy thinking you might be late for class.

"finally! im reaching my classroom" you took a sigh of relieved.
class after class you attended. jokes and laughs that's you survived those dull, boring classes. jokes after jokes after jokes! they made fun of everything, everywhere they went! they could just go on forever!

lunch time! 2 hours break. they decided to go out of school to have something to eat. along the way, you saw that kitten, that kitten that loves to play with you. immediately you squat down and it walked towards you. play around with it, they did. "should we bring it along to feed it?" one suggested. "only if he follows us" said another. luring the kitten to the foodcourt they tried hard. and after a few tries, the kitten decided to go its own path. "awww, so be it. " you said and off they went having their sumptuous meal(at Mcdonalds' instead LOL).

back to school with their bellies so full, lessons went on from 2 to 6, long hours it was, laughters they had more =)

traveling home with a friend you knew for long. your jokes continued to flow and yes they were far from home. making a fool out of one another they did. but more importantly, fun was what they really need.

now, finally home, you thought to yourself. "day was great after all"
doesnt matter how long the days gonna be, friends is all you really need. =)


im glad im bonded with my group of friends. =)

and i lost The Game more than 10 times today. ARGH. haha =D

i believed

i believed you waited.

it enlightens me to know

you're still, there =)

what happened?

just moments back
you were just in front of me, wanting to hold me, wanting to be with me
but now, your so cold, so distant, as though you find me irritating
what are you thinking?


what have i done

phase

Photography


a phase?

could something this expensive catch that many people interests, turning it into a hobby?

makes me wonder, am i just into this phase, or am i serious about this.

but im sure this is something i really want =)

how i wish i have a camera of my own....