2010

happy new year everyone!

this year will be different =)

ponders on...

what could be done....

i am just too vulnerable..

will this be the end of me?..

=)

Sundays are happy days.

8 oct

the date sets for my MRI scan on the knee..
could it be just a partial or a complete tear..
no one knows till then...


this is making me worried.. as i duno where am i going to be posted to as my knee is taking a long time to recover...


somehow... i hope i stay..

if its your desire, it will be my motivation...

POP

and i thought this day will never come.
thank God =)

my heart still sings..

Tonight I've Fallen and i cant get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
and every night I miss you, I can just look up
and know the stars are holding you holding holding you tonight


Chorus of "Tonight" by FM Static

why...

first of all... from no where.. i had shin splint on both legs from excessive running.. and now.. i busted my knee from jumping off the stupid ramp... how dumb can this be.... are my legs really that weak... if my legs already cant take such impact... do i even wanna think about airborne? or rather... should i even stay in the commandos...what should i do.....

a nice song i recently heard

Your Guardian Angel
by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus


When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

ponders on

maybe.. she's really that heartless...
maybe she really doesnt care at all
maybe she's really that mean..
maybe.. she wasnt putting on a show
maybe.. she really wants me to stay away from her
maybe.. I really disgust her...
maybe.. she really has no feeling...


BUT

maybe.. shes not showing me her true colours..




what are the odds...

shagged

keep pressing on Joel.

words from the heart

I want to fall in love with you... over and over again..

days of MC

been pretty bored at home... everyones in camp... or working.. dont ever wanna be sick again... dont wanna waste my time again...

my little prayer

oh God, make me stronger.
not to be vein but to survive in this place
the competitions are just so high that the the weak ones are just gonna be left behind
I don't want to be left out in this game Lord.
As I train Lord, protect me from injuries
I want to be the best.
an edge above the rest.
so that I could shine
in glory of your name.
Amen.

2nd book in

wanted to book in with a hug. but ended up with a slap

First Bookout

im OUT!! after 2 weeks.. geez... it felt like 2 months or smth.. life in there... was just... training and training and more training. but of coz.. there's quite abit or relax time too . probably hell aint reaching me yet. none the less.. i really hope i'll be able to do well and stay in this unit throughout. no pain no gain. then again, daddy God, be with me through this journey and protect me from being injured. Amen. =)

a song for you

"Wait For Me"

You are not alone tonight
Imagine me there by your side
It's so hard to be here so far away from you
I'm counting the days till
I'm finally done
I'm counting them down, yeah, one by one
It feels like forever till I return to you
But it helps me on those lonely nights
It's that one thing that keeps me alive

[Chorus:]
Knowing that you wait for me
Ever so patiently

No one else knows the feeling inside
We hang up the phone without saying goodnight
Because it's the sound of your voice that brings me home
It's never been easy to say
But it's easier when I've gone away

[Chorus:]
Knowing that you wait for me
Ever so patiently
Yeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having and
It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

[Bridge:]
What I'd give
What I'd do
Knowing I'm not there for you
Makes it so hard to leave
What I'd give
What I'd do
Anything to get me home to you
And this time I'll stay

And you wait for me
Ever so patiently
Yeah, you're everything I've ever dreamed of having and
It's everything I need from you just knowing that you wait for me

here's a link to the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GdlVFqI4rZo

this post is for alvin.

so yea alvin, just click to enlarge the picture. den right-click to save the picture. =)

your early bday poem hahahah

your my bro
you've never been a foe
you know i'll always have your back
and we do almost everything in pairs
8 years of friendship is a real treasure
and u know i'll be there for you when your under pressure
we've been through highs
we've been through lows
you know its you Jeremy
and your like my 2nd family

i love you bro! haha cant wait for your birthday celebration hahah

updates

finally back unto my com! wow crazy time spent in parties and events right after my graduation! haha i had soo lil sleep. so i thank god for mondays! haha its a day to rest. ahah graduation, which was on the 21-05-2009, was full of laughter and memories. =) ill miss TP, my friends, my course, my teachers.. maybe not the atmosphere. haha. 3 years well spent boy i must say haha. i hope we all stays in contact down the years man.

oh yea! and besides the mini parties that made me hang out till 5-6am before returning home, yesterday witness the PLAY! event at sentosa hosted by my church! man it was a huge blast! even my injured toe did not stop me from dancing and jumping when praise and worship started ahha. it was like a rock concert! just the waay i like it.. loud music.. crowed w familiar people.. everyones all jumping and dancing.. its was really smth not to be missed. =D but if u have missed it, well. theres another praise and worship session just like the one in PLAY! coming soon! i think its on the 7 june(sunday) 8pm at the rock audi! so be there! i'll be.. will you? i hope to see you there =)

good to be back

genting was hella fun! besides the point that it was my first time there, i would say the company of friends who went with me made it even more fun! it was the best holiday ever =D this was my first time out traveling with a bunch of friends without a school nor parents! was really havoc to the max! haha sad that holidays just have to end so quickly...

anyway, being the first time there, man everything was a must try! and yea i tried almost everything hahahha but of coz we didnt try the casino all because im the only one whos of legal age... pfft. man the theme park was a lil boring but theres one or two rides the really stood out like the 'space shot', and the 'cyclone', most importantly the go kart! haha so damn fun!

oh yes! food there was expensive.. but SOO SOO GOOOOD =D. but at times it was too salty or too sweet. but as a whole. its simply amazing. haha

im seriously gonna miss the time spent there, where theres nothing to worry about, no NS, no serving, no work, no projects no nothing! just fun =) so next stop, redang? hahaha